my journey to perfection...

walmartfashionista:

i want people to talk to me but i don’t want to have to respond

do you see my problem

(via ribcagedmonster)

Lunchtime today. Nightmare.

So I can’t stand it when people watch me eat at all. I try to be discrete with anything I ram down my throaght.
But today at lunch as I discretely gobbled down my sushi in the classroom, I suddenly became centre of attention. My friends asking “Is that all you eat?” “Does it fill you up?” “Whats in sushi?” “Do you like it?”
OMGGG! How I managed to stop myself from having a nervous breakdown I have nooo idea.
(how pathetic does that sound?)

I want to wake up and this have all been a bad dream. That’s what I really want.

Really craving bread lately.
I take one bite then it leads to another…and another…and forever!
I have no self control. WTF is happening.

Just one more year of this shit then off to uni. Hopefully things will change.

At this time I always sit and think in disgust of all of the things I’ve eaten that day.
How can I have an ‘eating disorder’ when I eat like a fucking horse?! Somebody please explain.